stuck:

After finally acquiring my bachelor's degree, I realized how tremendously unfulfilling my education really was. Criminology was interesting, sure, but what did I really want out of it other than a legal career? My hopes of becoming a lawyer have been extinguished and I find myself drifting towards Media, Art & Design. Why didn't I pursue my dreams in the very first place?

I know I'm not the only person out there wincing at their college diplomas and stressing themselves to sleep every night. I know for a fact there's a lot of people out there who are pursuing careers that have nothing to do with their poor collegiate decision making; still, I'm stuck in this rut and paralyzed by the terror of being completely lost.

In the meantime, however, I'm learning new things. I'm going to attempt some basic programming and take a course or two on CourseEra on things that appeal to my ecclectic tastes. This blog too is a outlet for my creativity as I constantly fine-tune my writing abilities. I've also signed up to volunteer at two food-packing events with a local charity, Feeding Children Everywhere, and I'm a mess of excitement because I'll be putting myself out there and doing something I truly care about.

Everything I do, I do to enrich myself. No longer will I allow myself to smoother my potential and imprison the better part of me because of social anxiety. I am doing this to better love and understand this girl I wake up to every morning. All I need to do now is stop worrying about my future and start laying the foundation for something amazing.

Damn, I feel a lot better now.